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Saturday, October 30, 2004

Red Sox Parade - 10.30.04


Red Sox Parade - 10.30.04
Originally uploaded by duckydale.
Jon and I went down to Mass Ave and Boylston to see the masses this morning for the Red Sox Parade. It's been estimated that 5 million people were in attendance. It was unreal how many people were just in the two blocks we made it through.

Here are some pics, though I couldnt tell you who half of the people are and or what position they play. Some are blurry as I had to reach high with the camera to get a shot.

It was raining and it smelled where we were, GOOD MORNING BOSTON!

Here is the link: http://www.duckyxdale.com/soxparade.html

Thursday, October 28, 2004

Soundtrack of the Unemployed

Here is what I've been listening to this week as I work tirelessly on my computer:

Artist (Album)

- Moby (18)
- Straylight Run (Straylight Run)
- Interpol (Antics)
- Keane (Hopes & Fears)

Election Mishaps Already! (click to read)

Are you kidding me? Broward County, Florida (home of all the mistakes and whoops we elected GWB in 2000) is at it again. As of this morning, it is reported that 58,000 absentee ballots are missing. Broward County is blaming the Postal Service (no, not the band) for the loss. What in the world is going on down there? Next they'll be blaming Hurricane Charlie or a crocodile. It's the new Disney production, "Follow that Ballot." How is it that the forensics team from CSI in Miami can solve any crime but we can't get a couple thousand ballots out and placed in the hands of those that need them? Florida should not be allowed to vote... ever! Let them vote for things that DO NOT matter: Grapefruit orchards, trailer park dimensions, and how many old folks fit in a convertible.

This makes me sick. With 5 days to go, this election is already going down the tubes. I'm gonna be pissed if Kerry loses.

World Series Aftermath


World Series Aftermath
Originally uploaded by duckydale.
Here's what I know... The Red Sox have won something and one block from my house the sky is orange and there are flames as high as the eye can see. Yet as I flip at 1:30am from 4 to 5 to 7 to 25 none of the helicopters are breezing that mile of sky from Fenway to the raging fire to let me know what is going down? Is it fuckhead fans setting brownstone's on fire as they walk home? Were drunken frat boys partying on the roof deck and deciding to set it ablaze? CBS, ABC, NBC, Fox, show me the fucking fire that makes my livingroom reflect daylight!

This town is insane. I am soooo not a fan of sports, but I am a fan of media hoopla and exploitation so you know I was all over Game 4 (well after "Lost" kicked some ass and I started book 3 of the Lemony Snickets series - this fag does not need to be watching THAT much baseball. Don't get me wrong, I like me some balls but this is ridonkulous!).

As I've learned from Patriot victories and last week's Game 7 against the Yankees, the appropriate response to a championship win is to HONK YOUR HORN for hours on end regardless of the hour. The second that last hit was caught and someone on first base made the last out, HHHHHHOOOORRRRRNNNNSSSSS. It's fun and exciting for the first hour (non-stop), then around 1am its getting old. As my block is engulfed in flames it's a little less joyous and at 2am when I finally shut off the television, it's just time to SHUT IT!

As I saw on the telly, Kenmore Square around Fenway was semi-under control after last week's riots and death of an Emerson student. I felt bad for the horses that are on patrol down there. I mean, 60,000 people an equestrian match not made. Poor horsies! And then they start throwing bottles at my friend Flicka, are ya kidding? Who throws anything at a cop, let alone a line of a couple hundred cops. Nothing better than helicopter footage of the police rushing fans and the pandemonium it creates before dissipation.

Oh, and I have a theory on New England Championships and my involvement over the last year. Now hear me out. When the Patriots won the Super Bowl this past year, I was laid up at home on the couch with a heating pad and some pain killers because I had just taken a header down a flight of stair, dislocating my tailbone. I was at home front and center for the chaos of their Victory Parade through the streets of Boston. Fine, nothing spectacular about that. BUT, I am now home because as you know, I am unemployed and the Red Sox have won and I will be privy to the celebration once again (from my home). Obviously I need to be broken in body and bank account for these New England teams to win anything. Don't ask again for another 86 years, I've given my share.

All in all, the city is still standing, that's the best we could hope for. I still have no idea what happened to that brownstone that was on fire. Nothing on the news this morning either, hello... other things do happen in the world unrelated to Red Sox Nation. Welcome to Boston.

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Click Here to see Eminem's "Mosh" Video

This is the video for Eminem's new song which is way political (notice the "Fuck Bush" rant in the middle) and encouraging everyone to vote come November 2nd. A must see.

"Dawn of the Dead" & "United States of Leland"

I will fully admit that I still to this day let my head get the best of me while watching films. That is my favorite part of wanting to watch and be immersed in film, the total suspension of disbelief on my part. I get so wrapped up in movies at times that it actually scares me, excites me, inspires me, depresses me, etc. And against my better judgment, last night I turned off all the lights and popped in the dvd of "Dawn of the Dead."

Now, if you know me at all, you know I am a devout zombie fan and a sucker for classic horror. The Romero "Dead" trilogy (soon to be quadrilogy - what is the word for that anyway?) is classic zombie paranoia that spoke volumes for the time periods in which they were produced. The original "Dawn" is hands down one of the best zombie films ever made and one of the best commentaries on consumerism ever made. All that aside, when the remake was announced, I was jazzed. I love horror movies, plain and simple. Bring it on! For some reason I never made it to the theatre to see the film, but last night it wrecked havoc on my living room.

This new "Dawn" does not have any form of social commentary, the relationships represented never pull you in and the bonds formed never resonate as they did in the '78 original. But, for a zombie film, this thing kicks some major ass. The reinvisioning of zombies over the last year (starting with "28 Days Later") has taken a frightening and more modern, maddening, paranoid take on our old oafish fiends. Gone are the days of the sluggish gray-faced zombie that may or may not get you. If you ran, you could get away. This new breed of zombie brings such intensity and immediacy to the survival game that if you run, you're done. They can jump and sprint better than a track and field star. The rushing and thrashing of it all is scary as fuck. It gives you a sense that if this really did happen, you have no chance of survival. Back in '78, you had a chance as long as you weren't barricaded into a corner. When I watch the original film, I get a sense that I possibly could have made it out of that situation alive. I mean, they couldn't get off the escalator let along catch you as you ran for the hills. A Krishna would not have killed me, I'll let that be known right here and now.

I will admit that half way through I had to turn on the lights because I couldn't deal with the complete blackness of my house. If something was coming at me from the kitchen, I at least wanted a visual warning. I know, don't... I'm a jackass.

This morning, I watched "United States of Leland" which was a sobering look at the sadness and despair of the world and how one boy takes steps to remove that feeling from his life. This one was a 2 hanky. I cried twice. This is the story of death and redemption in selfish forms. Leland kills his ex-girlfriends retarded brother for no apparent reason at all. Don Cheadle is an aspiring writer and teacher at the detention center Leland is sent. He uses Leland and the tragedy to write a book. Chris Klein woodenly acts his way through what he thinks will be the resolution to his girlfriend’s family's pain. Leland's father (Kevin Spacey) is a famous writer yet detached figure that too is using his son's tragedy to milk another novel. Everyone is selfish, even if they think they are acting under a bigger guise.

Leland killed the retarded boy because he saw hopelessness, sadness, and so much pain in his eyes that he wanted to make everything better for the retarded boy. He killed him to spare him anymore of this torture; he killed him because all he was being taught was the cautions of the world, no one was teaching him words like strawberry or kisses. Leland thought he was sparing the boy this bleak world but in reality Leland was sparing himself the pain around him by removing it from the equation. It was a heartbreaking tale, incredibly well acted and truthfully told. I thoroughly recommend.

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Unemployed and Overwhelmed

I swear, being unemployed is hard work. Dang. Yesterday I met with a placement agency and had to do those evil software tests (word, excel, powerpoint, math, spelling, typing). The room I had to work in was like 30 degrees below zero so my nimble fingers were not so limber and my typing speed sucked. They should really look into a warmer room as they could begin losing business based on the lower speed scores because clients fingers couldnt warm up. Darn. Then I went and saw my friend Eric's store (he manages a Kinko's in the financial district). Then I went and had coffee with my friend PJ and then saw her office (cute). Then I went down to Emerson and my friend Tom took me to Buddah's for lunch (yum, Buddah's and super dooper, it was free!). Then I walked home, called unemployment services and filed a claim.

Today I woke up and went to the gym at 6:30am (I know, right? I'm unemployed, sleep in). I then hit Star Market in Copley to get cat food and some lemons. I walked home, showered, ate breakfast and it was almost 9am. The day was shot. Kidding. I then looked at some job stuff online, cleaned up around the house and had some lunch.

I called in the 3 allergy prescriptions I have for refills so that I have them before my insurance runs out. I also made a hair appointment for Thursday at 12 with Melanie, my punk rock stylist. I also have set up lunch plans for Friday with Stacie, who is the director of Career Services at Emerson and also a friend. She's faboo and hopefully will help get me a jobby job.

I then remembered that two movies I wanted to see came out on DVD today so I went out in search of the best rental deal. I know a couple places we belong throw specials your way, but not sure which one did a 2-for-1 deal. I was at West Coast in the South End and they had both of my movies, but no special other than 3 for $9.99. I dont want three and I'm on a budget, so while in line to check out I called Mike's Movies 2 blocks over and they are having 2-for-1 tuesday. See ya! I head on over to Mike's and damnit, they dont have "I'm Not Scared" but they did have the remake of "Dawn of the Dead". Now mind you, in more stable economic times, I would have just hit Newbury Comics and purchased them both, but being unemployed and all... So, I rented "DOTD" and for a freebie i went with my boyfriend Ryan Gosling in "United States of Leland." I'll let you know how they go.

There is this overwhelming guilt that I should be spending every minute of my unemployed day searching for a job, but you can only look at so many of the same listings on 4 diferent sites for so long without wanting to hang yourself at the chance of no possibilities. I'll watch horror movies instead!

Friday, October 22, 2004

Merry Xmas Jon Bunch!

So I am sitting here watching the online trailer for a film called "Noel" and in the background is a cover of Merry Xmas (War Is Over) and it sounds great. I wonder who it is throughout the whole trailer and then it dawns on me... It is Jon Bunch, the singer from Sensefield that is now the singer for Further Seems Forever. If its not him I'm a monkey's uncle!

You heard it here first kids!

So to talk about that "Noel" film for a second. Its directed by actor Chazz Palminteri and its a romantic drama holiday movie about 4 strangers lives. The cool thing is, the film is being released limited style on November 10th I believe and on November 17th the DVD becomes available for purchase at a price of $4.99. This is the first Flexplay DVD to be mass marketed. This is a self destructing DVD (no, I'm not kidding) that is supposed to revolutionize video rentals and movie marketing (lets hope it doesnt go the way of the paperless office). Once you open the Flexplay package, the DVD is watchable for 48 hours before it decodes itself and is no longer playable. Its amazing. Pretty Cool huh?

11 Hours and Counting...

I've officially been unemployed now for 11 hours. I am beyond exstatic about not working at Firestone Financial any longer. I really did truly enjoy some of the people but as most of you know, I loathed every second of every day while I was in that office. It honestly felt like I was dying at times. I fell into a depression for about a year, I was no longer finding joy in my personal life or my relationships. I was loathsome to many people including myself, it just perpetuated this place that was obviously inside of me but never triggered until I was neck deep in that environment. So, I had no other choice but to leave to save myself and my sanity.

In case you are wonder, come Monday morning I will not be heading off to my new job, I will instead still be unemployed. I have plans for Monday though, don’t you worry. I have a meeting with a recruiter (no not an Army Recruiter retard) and I need to file unemployment on Monday. Busy day! I plan on spending this new found "free" time finding my creativity again. My mini-depression episode drained every ounce of confidence and creativity I have so I need to tap back into that outlet to once again be the man I want to be.

I was watching Dinner for Five on IFC tonight and Carrie Fisher was on there and she said something that I found incredibly apropos...

"If my life wasn't funny it would just be true, and that's unacceptable."

Amazing quote from a mentally insane dependency freak but none the less, amazing.

Thursday, October 21, 2004

For I am Jack, The Pumpkin King!

Here is my Jack Skellington Pumpkin which is posted on Boston.com

The Good, Bad & Ugly of Gwen Stefani

Last night I caught my first glimpse and listen of the solo Gwen Stefani project. The dancecentric tune “What Youre Waiting For” is the track and at first I hated it. From the electronic poppiness to the Tom Petty Alice In Wonderland wearing laced up crotch stretch pants video, I was annoyed. Then at midnight last night I caught it again on Fuse and began to bop around a little bit. Then this morning at 7:06 on M2 I caught it again and was addicted. Damn her and her gyrating Asian lovingness. I downloaded the song from iTunes before I left for work and listened to it 5 times before I got to the office. It’s energetic, kinetic, brash and shamelessly pop.

But this funky retro electronikkka made me think. When that horrid and last No Doubt album came out with “Hella Good” and all those other syth-pop disco tracks on it I felt betrayed by their true sound. It’s an experiment, fine. Next they hit us with one of the best cover songs ever done “It’s My Life” and I thought they were back on track. Tehn they take a “break” and Gwen talks about a solo album for like a year and finally the corn pops of her labor are here and it’s synth pop again.

Fine. If this is who she is and what she wants to do, fine but it’s a sharp contradiction to what No Doubt’s roots are and Gwen’s original anthem of “I’m Just A Girl” in which she was all about DYI Girl Power and kicking some system ass. No she’s more glam, bubble gum pop than Debbie Gibson and Britney Spears combined. She’s So-Cal Ghetto Fab, all decked out in couture and “street” gear with her perfectly styled hair and bright red lipstick rolling with her homies Eve and what-not so how are we not to feel betrayed by who she once was? Is the message she’s trying to send Generation Z “Sell Out, Go Glam, Marry Up, Wear Designer Duds with your perfect hair and success comes your way?” It’s only been a decade Gwen, how quickly you have fallen.

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

It's Tuesday You Right Cunt!

It's a BritPop Tuesday on my iPod today. So far I've listened to albums by the following artists:

- Blur
- Elastica
- Marion
- Gene

I am enamored by these accented and snarly loathsome and lovelorn Brits!

Monday, October 18, 2004

Kerry gets Whed-on

Supposedly one of these parties is coming to Boston. It sounds like a great way to celebrate President Kerry!

Friday, October 15, 2004

Headline of the Day!

So in this mornings edition of the Boston Metro paper there was a review of the Richard Gere, Lennifer Lopez, Susan Sarandon film Shall We Dance? The headline read...

"Shall We Dance?"... Nope!


What is that smell?

For some reason the front half of our office smells like an Ogilvy Home Perm, its disgusting up there. Gross. It seriously smells as if we are located above a tacky hair salon in South Jersey and I can't deal.

Fear Comes Full Circle...

Click here for the Ring 2 teaser which is unfucking believable. It may take a minute to load.

Sunday, October 10, 2004

Vanderbilt Jeans...

Jon and I attended a book reading and signing yesterday at Brookline Booksmith with the author Augusten Burroughs. If you dont know, Augusten has lived quite the life and his memoirs are living proof that not only is dysfunction and addiction funny, its a goldmine. Both Running with Scissors and Dry are witty, unreal true life tales. In Running his real parents ship him off to live with his mother's shrink and his psychotic and free family. He's raped by their family friend, encouraged to not attend school and lived a life of squalor. In Dry he talks about his battle with alcohol and codependency, love and death. He's an incredibly honest and at times scary author. To top it off, he is really good friends with my friend Haven Kimmel. If you know Haven and her work, you're a lucky person as she just plain rocks. Hello, this is a woman that dated Axl Rose in high school... come on!

A couple Augusten observations...
- His real name is not Augusten, not is it Burroughs. I didnt realize, but at age 18 he legally left his identity behind. We learned during Q&A that he picked Burroughs not because of William, but after a computer. He was going to be a computer programmer before he eventually got into advertising. How knew? Back to his name, apparently this week he told Teri Gross (NPR) what his real name is, so he was going to be signing books with both his birth and taken name.

- He's a lot taller and thinner than I thought him to be. In pictures he is always wearing a baseball hat (which he was this night) and has facial hair (which he was wearing this night) so its hard to get a full read on his face as not much light reaches a cheekbone or jawline. But, he is TALL and looking svelt. I know in Dry he talks about his physique and the gay cultural phenom with body image, but he seemed like a semi-portly fella in my mind. Now, its not like the radio dj flip-flop. You know, where you have been listening to a certain DJ for years and you think he/she has a hot voice and is so cool on air... He must be Jake Gyllenhal hot right? No, he's Rush Limbaugh size and missing a tooth and a hairbrush. It wasnt like that. I was just surprised at how attractive he actually was.

- His first reading was very funny and very David Sedaris (almost to a fault though). It was a story called Vanderbilt Jeans and he was recanting how as a child he went with his family to the Vanderbilt Breakers Estate in RI and knew he was "home". Convinced he was kidnapped by his parents as a child, he dreams of what his life must have been like as a Vanderbilt. It was funny. But as Jon reminded me later... David Sedaris did the exact same story a while back. Regardless, funny.

- His second reading was about turning the harrassment on telemarketing calls. He scored the number and extention of a guy calling about a master card and continued to sexually harass the guy for the remainder of the night. It was short and perfect in execution and intent. We all want to do this... he has. Genius.

- The new book is called "Magical Thinking" go get it.

Friday, October 08, 2004

Edamame Incident

So, I go into the kitchen here at work and there are two "take out" containers of edamame. I go over and grab one, heavily salted (yum) and stick the pod in my mouth. I bite down and drag the pod across my teeth to suck out the edamame beans. Seems thin...

This Edamame IS ALREADY EMPTY!

SICKA, I HAVE SOMEONE ELSES ALREADY EATEN EDAMAME IN MY FUCKING MOUTH!
Spit Spit Mouth Wash Spit Spit Mouth Wash Spit...

Ewwwww

Dirty...

Thursday, October 07, 2004

Political Overload?

My friend Jen has posted on her blog that she is sick of the political overload that has been saturating the media. She knows it is only going to get worse and wishes for a "political free" channel (very excellent post by the way Jen).

Now, I am not one to disagree that there is an oversaturation and I completely agree with her thoughts on overlooked local and state elections and bowties, but I have to say that I think the political overload is necessary and a great thing right now. I am so worried that people will still vote for GWB that I wish propaganda could be driven around the streets, piped into each home, spoon fed to children in their Ovaltine or as Jen suggested bribery through pumpkin pancakes (delish).

I actually feel like this is an election that people are taking stock in. I actually feel like part of the process this time. I actually feel important in making this decision. I actually think John Kerry has a chance. I mean, he has my vote regardless of what he does/thinks/says at this point. If he raped a kitten tomorrow while smoking crack after de-tusking an elephant I would still vote for him. Realistically, the only thing that would deter me is if he publically beat a baby seal to death then used that dead seal to start beating all the gays he could find.

My point is, without the oversaturation, I fear middle america will not be informed of any party issues. Without saturation, middle america will blindly support this President and this war which was proven to have been started under false pretenses. I mean, Hello folks, Iran (n, not q) yesterday was found to have enough materials to start building nuclear weapons and Osama is still missing, but thank god we have Saddam.

I'm over worrying that GWB will be reelected. I am over the damn magnetic ribbons on cars, which is a whole 'nother story. I am over Dick Cheney and his lesbian daughter. I am over it. Let's get to November and President Kerry already, can we?


Rich Habits To Break

Why is it that I just quit my job, well in reality I am working until October 22nd, but basically... there is an end here folks... Why is it that I have just quit my job and I still think of things to buy. I know Jon would not like these thoughts as I am sure he is already thinking that somehow, someway he will be taking care of me (which will not be the case I can assure you as I will have a job by then) but what can you do... they're ONLY THOUGHTS! I will not act on these thoughts, but I sit there and think, "Hey, wouldn't new computer stuff be fun?" or "Wow, did you see that Bose iPod system?" or "Christmas is coming, do I really want to work during the holidays?" or "I can work on my documentary full time..."

The point is, these thoughts swirl into my mi-i-i-ind and I am rational enough to know they are only thoughts. Don't listen to the voices in your head (well unless you have Herman's Head! - god, I loved that show...)

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

New Segment... MORNING HAIR LOOK ALIKE

Each day I will try to give you an update on the status of my morning hair. If you've scrolled through some of the archived messages, you will realize that there is one where I'm a little kewpie doll-ish.

Monday, October 4, 2004
This morning was all about looking like a homeless crack addict. Celebrity most resembling... Nick Nolte's arrest photo (see below)
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Wednesday, October 6, 2004
Oh no, this morning I'm one of the Golden Girls. I'm not sure which one, but its big and feathery and dry looking. I'm going with (see below)
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Monday, October 04, 2004

Updates

In case you are wondering, I have updated the following sections:
- I Heard
- Media (Shaun of the Dead review)

It just came on, there was nothing I could do about it...

So i am sitting here typing and on comes "Am I Wrong" by Love Spit Love and I instantly tear up. Its one of those songs that instantly takes you to a specific space and time and associations flood your brain and make it impossible to think of anything else. Richard sings as I can barely see my flat screen and type these words.

This song is Buffalo for me. It is Nicole Dickerson cum Johnson. It is brit pop straight boy obsessions gone wrong and toiled over in a way too hot studio apartment with vanilla tea and blankets. It's a blizzard as I walk home at 7am from my third shift at Kinko's. It's instant. It's a piece of me. It's what music means.

It's October, Listen...

So far these are the sounds of fall in my head, or at least in my ipod:

Jimmy Eat World - Futures
Frou Frou - Details
R.E.M. - Around the Sun
Walking Concert - Run to be Born
Eighteen Visions - Obsession
The Used - In Love and Death
Cowboy Junkies - Platinum & Gold Collection: The Best
My Chemical Romance - Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge


I know its random, but what can I tell you? I got advance copies of both Jimmy Eat World and R.E.M.. Jimmy is of course earth shattering. REM is luke warm, its familiar and soothing but might be on the verge of adult contemporary.

Walking Concert is the new effort from ex-hardcore god, Walter Schreifels (Quicksand). It's so different from his Quicksand/Rival School efforts, it's much more Paul Westerberg/Ryan Adams. It's a great fall sound, and he's still hot.

I've been obsessed with Frou Frou since I saw Garden State, she's damn good. Eighteen Visions, The Used, and My Chemical Romance are screaming wonders for autumn. And you just have to love The Cowboy Junkies... I mean, come on... I grew up in the late eighties, early nineties and they are seminal.

That's me. What are you listening to this month? Please post in the comment section. I like sharing music information.

Oh Goodness...

I just gave my resignation at work. Hey now! What, and no backup plan... no job lined up. This will be an interesting couple weeks.

(*a silent scream)